Love Letter

My dearest self,

You should know that no matter what happens, I will always be here for you. We can get through anything together, hardship, heartaches, disappointments - you name it! I will always be by your side, so don't be scared. Don't be afraid to live it up to your full potential. Don't be scared to open up. Don't be afraid to take a leap of faith. You will be alright.

What you can do is to be responsible for your own behavior and actions, and not anyone else. So conduct yourself in a way that you will not regret. My dearest, you have always been very good at this and you will, too, in the same manner that you've carried on thus far. Because you are you, the one and only, the most awesome person to me!

With lots of love,

Honesty and Authenticity...

Those are a part of who you are, and I happen to share somewhat of the same sentiments. So here goes.

I don't do very well with Grey!
When it comes to matter of the heart...
Grey makes me weak and insecure
Grey brings tears to my eyes
Grey confuses me
Grey causes me to question my intentions and actions
Grey gives me so much heartache...

I happen to prefer Black and White!
and if you ask me why...
I can only say
That's just me - with complete honesty and authenticity.

I . am . VERY . excited!

Not a lot of things can excite me these days. But I have to admit I have had this excitement for a couple days now. 


Words cannot describe the things I want to tell you
But I know the minute our eyes meet...
It won't matter
Everything stands still
Time becomes non-existent
The only thing left to do is to jump into your arms
...and stay there as long as I can


I smell the familiar scent as our cheeks touch
I close my eyes and everything is beautiful again
just as...
the first time we talked
the first time we held hands
and the first time we kissed
.....


"Everyone needs someone to make them feel like tomorrow is more than just another day." - You make my tomorrow brighter than I can ever imagine! 

nostalgic

..is the state of my being today

one last time
you held my hands
strong grip but oh-so-caring
letting me know I'm yours
for once
forever
Time stood still...
as we felt the trembling
inside our hearts and souls
We belong together..

I cried
I felt the heartache
for you
for the first time
knowing it's the end of us.

A conscious decision I made
without you knowing it
but it's right
it's a must

So long.. my friend
You will forever be in my heart!

Comfort

Can a girl even get her Wednesday's comfort breakfast around here?
The best biscuit and gravy at the hospital cafeteria. It escaped me today.
I arrived with only one person in line in front of me, 5 minutes before the hotline closed.
And she ordered all three of the remaining biscuits.
I left with nothing!!!

Try my luck - these days.

I couldn't even get my comfort food to ease my soul.
That felt like someone was scrubbing my fresh wound with salt. Ouchie.

I had one of those ouchie moments yesterday.
Dating is hard. Doing the right thing in dating is even harder at times.
I did my right thing. And I received the right thing someone decided upon me.
It was so right I couldn't disagree.

A good friend reminded me that it is about the journey, not the destination.
It's true, but it is difficult to see when your journey leads you to a deadend.
But maybe it is a blessing after all?
Perspective is a tricky one, I'd tell ya.

If

If Genie was by my side
I wish for sunshine all day
365 days of the year here
where I live. Ocean. Lakes. Trees.
all immersed in the eternal sunshine.

If Genie was by my side
I wish the world is free
of poverty. violence. war. preventable deaths.
I wish everyone is completely free
of hatred. pain. and broken hearts.

But as they say it so:
Life goes on. Things happens, for
a reason. Unbeknownst to you. But
have faith. Stay true to yourself.
Eventually things will fall into places
the way they're supposed to be...


A little late but here it is, last Friday's six words - If

So this is how chemistry feels like...

I have felt the butterflies in my stomach before.
I have felt the twists and the turns of my gut, which at times were mistaken to be the mysterious zaa-zaa-zou.
And I have also felt the nagging of my intuition, deep in my core, telling me to get out.

But I should know the differences - the excitement
of the true, genuine, undeniable, and consuming chemistry,
that awakes the deepest part of my heart and soul.

That was what I felt.
Again,
After a long time.